1. 有神论与世界结构
I am a theist. I believe there exists an intelligence infinitely beyond human capability that created this world through an ingenious process. To itself, this process is concrete; to us, it is abstract and inexplicable. We are to this existence what cells are to our own bodies—tiny and simple.
This world is likely an infinite computer simulation, but its logic must be more complex than binary 0 and 1. There must be states between 0 and 1—quantum states. To explain this, I think of π. There are three possibilities for π:
1. Terminating decimal: Meaning we could draw a truly perfect circle, but current human computing power and physical space cannot construct it. A compass-drawn circle is only the most ideal approximation. Philosophically, everything is predetermined. The perfect diameter and perfect circumference would have an endpoint.
2. Infinite repeating decimal: Meaning history cycles infinitely—seasons repeat, and humanity oscillates between desire and boredom like Sisyphus pushing his boulder uphill every day.
3. Infinite non-repeating decimal: Meaning history is an open, complex world—unpredictable.
I believe all three are possible, or perhaps the third encompasses the first two.
How the creator communicates with us: through lightning creating organic matter, through random events that seem "natural." But nothing is truly accidental—everything is predetermined. Emergence itself was introduced to humanity through lightning, or perhaps through extraterrestrials.
2. 《黑客帝国》的先知对话
There's a classic dialogue between Neo and the Oracle: "You're not here to make the choice. You've already made it (your future self). You're here to understand why you made it." I've listened to that line 100-200 times and let my emotions unfold inside it. The takeaway for me: we don't have free will. What we do now is already decided. At every moment we carry all prior physical states plus a touch of randomness, and that pushes our life forward. Looking back from the future, everything seems explainable, but in the moment we don't understand—only after it happens do we understand.